My last post was September 4th. I could say that I was busy with work and side projects. But that would be untrue. The reason that I have not written a post is because this journey is so personal and emotional, putting it out there for the world leaves me vulnerable-and that is scary. However lately I have been thinking that this journey is not just about me. Many women are going through some difficult situations and I want them to know that they are not alone.
So my new commitment is that I will write at least twice a week without fail or excuse. As always I will remain truthful in my post. I will also do more to spread the blog out (going beyond my family) so that it can reach and change the lives of others.
Having said all that, I guess I should give a quick update on how I've been since September 4! Well, my period did come in September and I was happy. I had no cramps and I was genuinely thankful that it had come. My period also came in October. Although I had very little cramps I was an emotional mess! I cried. I cried partly because the cruelness of premenstrual symptoms mirrors early pregnancy symptoms and I cried because I didn't know what else to do. Up until that point I felt like I had a game plan...doctor visits, change diet, take vitamins. But suddenly I am at a place where I feel I have done all that I can do. Like the song says, at that point all you can do is stand. Of course the Big God I serve always comes through in the midst of any despair and dried up my tears as quickly as they came. I also had yet another opportunity to draw closer to my husband. Our love continues to grow so strong-we are truly one flesh and our love has no limits. So as ONE flesh, serving ONE God we STAND.
